How do we express our gratitude for the little joys on our bad days? Where we are struggling to find God’s light in the cave of our emotions?
I had one of those days yesterday. I cried out to God. This was NOT the plan this week. I wasn’t supposed to struggle. My prayer was for my eyes to be open to the smaller and grander pieces of my surroundings, so I can illuminate them with gratitude. I wasn’t expecting this detour.
So, as I pulled in my driveway, I felt God direct me to take this photo by a tree in our yard. I hesitated. After all, this is a personal moment I am having. I don’t want to share this. Put myself out there like that? Yikes. Not sure about that. And I certainly don’t want to give the impression I am seeking attention. But, as more tears raided my eyes, I heard,
” They need to see my sovereignty isn’t always seen on the good days, but on the bad ones too. It’s just as important to show who I am when you are crying out to me as it is when you whisper. You need to set that example. And you need to trust me. The purpose of your blog is to be real and honest in your walk with me, so others may see who I really am. Don’t stray from the opportunity I have given you to define that purpose. Take the opportunity, so I can show myself through it.”
So, here I am in front of my tree from yesterday-dried mascara painted cheeks…. I sought God’s face with all my heart. Show me something Father!
Think of this on your own days of struggles. When you think you’re alone and feel trapped in your own emotions, you’re NOT! Our brokenness is a vein that runs directly into God’s sovereignty. In a little while I will post how God filled that vein for me that same evening.
Here is how God responded a few hours after the above photo was taken.
Even when He doesn’t take away my struggles, I still find gratitude in His Loving nudges. He reassured me that He is always there and His purposes for me run much deeper than my tears. His response renewed my strength as He always does. I needed Him in that moment and as always He came through. Please take a few minutes to watch the below video to understand why the way He answered was perfect.
Then the next day, I received this text message from an acquaintance. I was so blessed by this message. It was random and completely unexpected. I Love when God uses people to speak to our hearts.
So, how do we find the little joys on our bad days?
When we make the choice to seek God’s face no matter how pain-afflicted we may be.
When we choose to lift our hearts to God, even when they are full of the messy stuff, He will refresh our spirits in ways that speak personally to our hearts-and like a rainbow after the rain, He displays streaks of His perfect beauty. It’s in those breath-taking displays, we see the true colors of our Joys.